sub update

Since finding that My boy was heading overseas I have been on the prowl for a new sub. It's been slow going as ever. So much bullshit. So little time.

However worthless bullshiters aside I have had some improvments on the sub front.

You may remember Me referring to a certain sub as My prototypical bad sub. He threw away our D/s almost 2 years ago. Since then he has been trying to get back into My good books. I have rebuffed his every attempt. Often none too gently. Why? W/we seek different things. he has no interest in face to face D/s. he also lied to Me which I do not forgive easily. So when he turned up this time again asking Me to forgive him and give him another chance I had to tell him honestly that he was not the sub I was looking for. The only way I could accomodate his interests is in a professional capacity. he agreed. So now I have a submissive that I will not be seeing face to face who will be tributing Me for My Dominance online and in txting. Interesting, no? I still have My reservations about him and we will see how long this lasts.

Here is an exert from his last journal.
"Things i hope to acheive my submitting you. I hope to find peace in my inner self. By that i mean, vanilla life and things have never made me happy inside. It has just seemed normal and bland to me. This is why i need this relationship to work out because it makes me feel alive and different than i have ever felt in my llife. I also hope by submitting to you i can please you , make you happy, and show you how good a person i am . I am starting to learn that this is to please you and not to please myself. Pleasing you will in return please myself.

What i hope to gain by my submission is peace of mind, and happiness i have never been able to achieve this in vanilla life. I hope to gain your trust, and your care back. I also hope to change for the better. I need Mistress to change my mind body and soul for the better. Each day i hope to give her more and more and please her more and more, and obey her more and more. I have to learn to let go and let you take control of my mind. I need to learn to let you take control of my soul. and also my body. I know you know what is best for me, and i need to let go of the controls . And give them to you."

It's a starting point anyway.

I have been in conversation with a slave in Florida. he impressed Me so much that I offered for him to serve Me at COPE. However family commitments precluded that option. W/we continued to talk and I really like the respect he shows Me as well as his apparent sincerety. So I have consented to begin training him online with the intention of him serving Me at future events. he will be starting a slave journal which I may end up having take the form of a blog ala pupslavekeith and Master Chris. We will just have to see how it works out.

I also have a couple of submissives that might be getting to the point of getting to meet Me.

So as ever it continues. Fingers crossed.