For the first time in a week I can breathe easier. Thank goodness! More details to come. Right now, just basking in the relief!

The Universe has shaken the cosmic Etch-A-Sketch that is My life. We'll wait till it settles and see what we see. In the mean time, good thoughts My way would be very beneficial.

I heart Patricia Quinn

A long, long time ago in a galaxy far far away I was a sexually frustrated virgin. I was exposed to many a fucked up thing during My adolecence. Only one really captured My sexual attention. The Rocky Horror Picture Show. Not for the reason you would think. No. The reason I watched RHPS over and over and over again was because I fell head over heels in lust with Patricia Quinn or as you might know her better "Magenta". Something about her voice, her lips, her beautiful breasts made Me tingle in My unmentionable areas. I watched her few scenes and would masterbate frantically. Eventually through My RHPS fantasism I found out about Shock Treatment, the sequel to RHPS. It's a terrible movie really, however I love it. I heart cheese in all it's forms. Plus it has one of the sexiest songs in it. I actually wore out My VHS rewinding and watching that song over and over and over again. Being outside looking into the room speaks to the voyer within Me. I really don't care about the other rooms or the other people. Just the room with Patricia Quinn and Richard O'Brian. I could watch that all day. If I am having a bad day My husband will pop in the DVD (had to replace the VHS after all) and head down south. I told you I was the luckiest girl in the world! :)

Anyway thanks to the miracle of youtube I can show you My favorite scene. Yum!

Swim-by Snatch Snatching Shocks Swimmer

That would be the headline for today. There I was swimming away in the lake having a grand old time when I am BIT! That's right BIT not a half inch from My vajayjay! Some perverted fish apparently had a view that they couldn't resist. It swam right up and gave Me a love bite!!! I was molested by a fish!!! I screamed NON CONSENTUAL!!!! but the lifeguard just looked confused. I may need therapy!

Hell is humidity

It's 2:45AM. I am awake. I am hot. And NONE of it is for a good reason.

It is almost a million degrees outside and it is 2:45 in THE MORNING!!!! Some jackoff hit something around the corner from Me and knocked out the power to the entire neighborhood. Making the temperature inside My house around....Mm....2 million degrees and rising. So here I am. Up. Tired. Cranky. Grrrr!!!! Someone is going to rue this day! RUE IT!!!!

Chi-town report!

After 12 solid hours of sleep I am somewhat recovered from My weekend in Chicago.

Here are the highlight of My weekend.

1. Impromptu Family Reunions. We went to Chicago for My husband’s grand parent’s 75th wedding anniversary. We knew we would be overwhelmed by My father-in-law’s family but what We were unprepared for was My mother-in-law’s entire family turning up the night before. Aunts, Uncles, cousins, Great Aunts, Great Uncles, cousins, brother, nieces, cousins. Friday night, dinner for 30. Sat night, dinner for 50.

2. Food. I am finally able to weight in on the age old debate: Which is better? Chicago or New York style pizza? Having had Grandpa’s Pizza in New York on a few occasions, and having now eaten at Gulliver’s (a Chicago Institution) I can say with no reservations that Chicago style has NOTHING on New York. New York wins hands down. Grandpa, I was thinking of you the whole time Gulliver was in My mouth.

3. Food. My father-in-law is Chinese. Most of his large family lives in Chicago proper. When there is a family reunion I am treated to authentic Cantonese food. There was talk about going to an Italian restaurant but thankfully that was just scuttlebutt. We hit the Kow-Kow restaurant and had 24 dished (plus appetizers) passed around the room. I can not emphasize this enough. There are few things in life better than eating Chinese food with Chinese people (and yes they call it Chinese food). SO GOOD!

4. Blatant disregard for children. We spent a lot of time poolside. My kid and her cousins playing in the pool as were several other children from the hotel. What was noticeably missing were the children’s parents. 6 kids between the ages of 4-8 were sent by their parents to the pool to play while they stayed in the room. There was no life guard. And none of these children knew how to swim. I nearly cried.

5. Transformers 3 being filmed in down town Chicago. This is not a highlight but it rates mentioning that they were filming it while We were there. My F-I-L took My niece for a tour of down town but I had threatened to slap Shia Labloof in the face too many times to actually be taken downtown to see the filming. However Shia did manage to annoy Me personally by his presence. On the ride in We had no problems with traffic till We hit Chicago. The traffic generated by Shia and the Transformers caused the interstate to be at a dead stop. It took us 2 hours to go 13 miles. So I owe Shia a 5th slap. 1. for Transformers 1. 2 for Transformers 2. 3 just for living. 4 for saying he wanted to marry his mom. And 5 for inconviencing Me. 6 will be if they actually make Tranformers 3.



6. Getting home. When we FINALLY turned the corner onto our street, what awaited us? A rainbow, ending directly over Our home. How perfect is that?

I heart Tracey Ullman!

I nearly peed Myself laughing at this. So good.

On the road again!

Chi-town here I come!

We were going through Jason's comics the other day and found this ad. The honest to god Charles Atlas program! I heart this!!

sub update

Since finding that My boy was heading overseas I have been on the prowl for a new sub. It's been slow going as ever. So much bullshit. So little time.

However worthless bullshiters aside I have had some improvments on the sub front.

You may remember Me referring to a certain sub as My prototypical bad sub. He threw away our D/s almost 2 years ago. Since then he has been trying to get back into My good books. I have rebuffed his every attempt. Often none too gently. Why? W/we seek different things. he has no interest in face to face D/s. he also lied to Me which I do not forgive easily. So when he turned up this time again asking Me to forgive him and give him another chance I had to tell him honestly that he was not the sub I was looking for. The only way I could accomodate his interests is in a professional capacity. he agreed. So now I have a submissive that I will not be seeing face to face who will be tributing Me for My Dominance online and in txting. Interesting, no? I still have My reservations about him and we will see how long this lasts.

Here is an exert from his last journal.
"Things i hope to acheive my submitting you. I hope to find peace in my inner self. By that i mean, vanilla life and things have never made me happy inside. It has just seemed normal and bland to me. This is why i need this relationship to work out because it makes me feel alive and different than i have ever felt in my llife. I also hope by submitting to you i can please you , make you happy, and show you how good a person i am . I am starting to learn that this is to please you and not to please myself. Pleasing you will in return please myself.

What i hope to gain by my submission is peace of mind, and happiness i have never been able to achieve this in vanilla life. I hope to gain your trust, and your care back. I also hope to change for the better. I need Mistress to change my mind body and soul for the better. Each day i hope to give her more and more and please her more and more, and obey her more and more. I have to learn to let go and let you take control of my mind. I need to learn to let you take control of my soul. and also my body. I know you know what is best for me, and i need to let go of the controls . And give them to you."

It's a starting point anyway.

I have been in conversation with a slave in Florida. he impressed Me so much that I offered for him to serve Me at COPE. However family commitments precluded that option. W/we continued to talk and I really like the respect he shows Me as well as his apparent sincerety. So I have consented to begin training him online with the intention of him serving Me at future events. he will be starting a slave journal which I may end up having take the form of a blog ala pupslavekeith and Master Chris. We will just have to see how it works out.

I also have a couple of submissives that might be getting to the point of getting to meet Me.

So as ever it continues. Fingers crossed.

Tweet

So I give in. I am on Twitter. I deleted My old vanilla account and opened a new kinky one. MistressTrxz. follow Me. Tweet. Make Me feel good. :)

I know. I have been MIA. How have you managed to get along with out Me? What? Pretty easily? Well screw you too! Kidding of course. sort of!

In any case.. Hello!! It's been a while! Life got busy. Really busy! Between Gma in TX and everything else I have been fairly rushed off My feet. But it looks like I have a small break between events so I will update.

Gma is doing better. What can I say, she's a trooper. Strokes, heart Attacks, nothing slows her down. She is still as sassy as ever which is wonderful. Few people could wistand what her body has been dealing out lately and still remain mostly the same. Go gma!

Friday My sub deployed. It was a hard day. A lot going on in the regular world and then add that on top in My D/s world... well it all ended up making Lana rather sad Friday. Though it isn't as bad as it will be in a month. Right now he is at a super secret base getting ready to be shipped over seas. He will be there till the begining of August. So in this time I can still keep in sporadic communication with him. I miss him. I want him back. I hate sharing with Master Sam. Thank you much for the well wishes which have coming flooding in. he is doing well. As well as can be expected in any case. he also appreciates the notes of support that I have passed on to him.

I ended up going to the PD Friday. Was exausted and the last thing I wanted to do was get back into the car after all the driving I had been doing but at the last minute I decided to go down and say Hi. I am glad I did. I could have stayed home and eaten a pint of ice cream like I had planned and thought about My boy going off to war. But it seemed more prudent to go and see My extended kink family (yes, that means you!). As always I was greeting with warm wishes, great hugs (Cheri I'm looking at you!) and good conversation. I only stayed about an hour but it was the boost I needed.

Sat I went to the AIS Champagne Room takeover party. I ended up taking My mom's best friend, Cindy. Yes, My minister Mom's bff. Why? I hear you asking. Well Cindy is kink curious. I am very out about My lifestyle. She has asked Me questions about it for the past year or so but she finally told Me she was interested in seeing what it was about for herself. I was a little hesitant at first (see above Mom's bff comment)so I asked her what her interest in kink was. She said she didn't know. I asked her what she wanted to see/try. She said she didn't know. I asked her what appealed to her about the lifestyle. She said she didn't know. But then she said something that made Me decide that I would take her. She said "I've been told my whole life what I want. I'm 52 and I think it's time to decide what I want for myself." So I got her hip to fetlife. When the lovely Cheri reminded Me of the party I offered Cindy to go with Me. She did. And she had a good time. As did I. I got to play with a good friend and make her purr like a sated cat which was lovely. Had another friend give Me a quick rub down which was fun. There is something about being nearly naked (I had on My FAVORITE frilly butt panties) under the stars that is absolutely exhilerating! Master Chris, pupslave Keith, I will be invading your nude beach at some point!!!! So good times were had. And Cindy has decided that she is kinky! Woot!

Sunday I was totalled. I didn't get to sleep til 5am. My kid had a sleep over so little girls woke up at 6:30. which means, I was up. Ended up dropping the kid off at the lake with My parents and went home to take a nap. Couldn't sleep and got an offer of a massage from another friend. I took him up on it and trained him a little on how to give a good massage. I then got him hip to some of the Lana movie collection. No not those movies, perv!!! But the other goodness that Lana has on Dvd. So it was a nice day. Though he needs more work on his masssage technique. I think maybe 2 training sessions a week and he will be a top notch massuer. Or maybe I just want more massages. No, that can't be it. I am being selfless by helping him perfect his technique. Ya. that's it. :) Also congrats Mason on finding a job worth having!

So that is the update thus far. I head to Chicago this weekend which will be more fun than drowning a bag full of kittens. :)

Happy 4th of July!!!

Even if the Declaration of Independence was adopted on the 2nd and the only reason we celebrate the 4th is because that was the day the dec was distributed to the masses it's still an important day. My love to all you Americans today!

Close to My heart!

I love music. One might even go so far as to say that I heart it. Music has the ability to reach down into My soul and speak to Me as few things can. There is a soundtrack to My life. Each age permeated with different artists and songs. Today I can hear a song and remember with vivid clarity the raw emotions that song stirred in Me when I was 8 or 12 or 16 or 19. Certain songs that I love I can not listen to because the emotions associated with it are too strong for Me even today to process. Music helped Me find solace in a world that I could not control, that seemed to hurt Me from all sides. Music never wounded. Music only ever helped Me. I admire musicians on a higher level than any other kind of artist. People like My best friend who can actually create music astound Me. Not just the writing of lyrics (though he does that magnificently) but the crafting of actual music. Bars. Notes. Meter. Intonations. Awe inspiring.

On this topic I speak to music but I feel I should put a caveat at this point. If you were to turn the radio to any FM station on the dial, I am not referring to that. That is just fluff and filler for clear channel. We live in the age of Auto Tune. I hate Auto Tune. One could say that I heart with a circle around it and a line through it Auto Tune. It’s cheating. And everyone knows. So why does it continue? Even artists that have good voices have increasingly turned to AT. WTF? Are you just too lazy to practice your craft and make sure you can nail those notes successive times in the booth? Or do you just not care? Either way, it makes Me think the worse of you and respect you less.

AT aside, the crap that is played on the radio today is ridiculous. Occasionally there might be something of value that makes it to regular radio but not often.

My life soundtrack halted when I turned 20 and became a mom. I no longer had the time to search out music and spend days listening to an artists catalog. I was lucky if I hear something that didn’t have the words “Blue’s Clues” in it. Talk about crap lyric content. Thank goodness for Sesame Street! It has only been through the ministrations of My best friend that I have been kept abreast of the music in the past decade that is worth listening to. Every so often he sends Me a CD. Through those CDs I have found musicians that I never would have heard of before. I have been able to continue My life’s sound track by forging relationships with some of these artists and getting to hear their catalogs. I have been able to reconnect with music and for that I am truly grateful.

I spend a lot of time in this blog talking about inconsequential shit. My day to day life. My journey as a Mistress (which has unfortunately stalled owing to lack of submission) had value and My writing I know has some value. What writing is for the mind, music is for the soul. I am luck enough to have a friend dear to My heart that feeds both My mind but also My soul. For that I am deeply honored and indebted.


Keith, I was listening to Bright Eyes' Nothing Gets Crossed Out and well I can’t quite help feeling a bit sentimental. We’ve been through a lot and today I love you more than ever. I am extremely fortunate to have you in My life and I wanted to say that in a (somewhat) public way. I adore you and hope that I can contribute to your happiness a fraction of that which you contribute to Mine. And not just because of your bitchin’ Mix CDs!

Cutbacks all around!

Even Batman had to scale back a bit. But really? A Ford Focus?

Another woodsy pic NSFW

This picture was a request from My lady love. I thought it turned out pretty hot so I am including it here.